I'll miss you when you're gone in pretending that you meant the world to me..

I HATE MY LJ NAME.. AND WITH THAT I MADE A NEW ONE.. MY NEW LJ NAME IS

sweeet_sayonara

PLEASE ADD IT TO YOUR FRIEND LIST SO I CAN FORGET ABOUT THIS LJ ALL TOGETHER.. AND I GUESS YOU CAN ERASE THIS LJ FROM YOUR FRIENDS LIST ALSO.. PLEASE PLEASE ADD MY NEW ONE.

..my insult to injury :)

Hmm yeah DEFINITELY not babysitting this weeeeekend!! Friday I think I might just stay in or something so I can save all my energy for BLIND SET and SMALLTOWN SUPERHERO.. which btw, Jake- I talked to Amber ((Josh's gf)) and she said that she's going to talk to Josh today and get back to me about it. I think you guys are going to be playing though.. :)

Hmm yeh, hung out with Arthur and Jess and Adam and Matt last night.. there were these 2 girls who were beautiful and then when they opened their mouths I was like WHOOOOAA BUCKCHERRY.. nothing but a vocabulary which included like totally, like oh my god, like yeah... Jess and Kristin and I just rolled out and went for a walk for about an hour to get away from it all.. haha

Fishing on Sunday.. it's a definite. Who's coming?! So far it's just Amber and Ashle and I.. it'll be fun!!

Stef and Kippy and Cammiefresh and whoever else I love, I really want you guys/girls to go to the Ground Floor on Saturday. I know you all hate that place but it's really not THAT bad and we'll have fun!! Trust me.. please please please try and make an effort to come.

NEW SCREEN NAME - pati vizXcore.. muhaha add that bitch and IM me!!

PuLL tHe TriGgEr <3 - Pati

Current Mood: anxious
Current Music: Say Goodbye - Blind Set

..the one I sing alone.

Blahh my mom's bitching at me again. What else is new?! I better NOT have to babysit this weekend. I will seriously fucking flip a lid like whoa. All I do on my weekends is babysit. And yeh during the week I go out till all hours of the morning but I'm bored the whole time. My life sucks anymore.

Saturday, it's going down. That's all I have to say.

Current Mood: aggravated
Current Music: Kill the Stars - Blind Set

I love all of my friends with all my heart.. the new ones, the old ones, even ones who I haven't actually talked to in person yet ((hehe)) I just thought I'd make the love I have for my friends known.

<33Pati

Current Mood: chipper
Current Music: Camp Kill Yourself

Ok, so I went to school today for like 30 minutes but as I'm walking towards the school I see Nathaniel and my heart stopped. I haven't seen him in forever. He called me for awhile when I came home from the hospital and he promised to come see me and then.. nothing. Blahh to that one.

I guess no one wants to go fishing Saturday?! :(

Went to McDonalds with Kailey today.. she was babysitting these two kids. Amber is sooo cute!! She drooled ALL over me though which wasn't cool.. haha. I <33 kids but damn that was the best birth control everr!! Hearing Amber scream in the back of the car was like a wake up call to me, fuck if I'm having kids.

Almost got in a car accident last night.. jeeze that's always nice.. thank god Kristin drives good though because she saw the guy pull out in front of our car before Ashle or I noticed and that girl slammed on her brakes like it was her job. Kristin felt bad afterwards =/ I wish she didn't though because it didn't bother me all that much, I mean yeh I was a little shooken up but that's kind of expected.

Got my classwork for English and History and I could seriously shoot myself at how much work I have to do.. and tomorrow I get my make up work for Astronomy and Psychology. Woo I'm sexcited.. SIKEEEE MAJOR FAKEOUT!!

I'm not going to the grange friday.. I changed my mind. I'll most likely invite lots of people to come over and then if no one comes I'll just sleep. So, if you're my friend and you love me you're more then welcome to come over Friday :) Maybe we can go fishing then!!!!!! Either way, I want to fish.

Pull the trigger <3 - Pati

Before I forget, I saw Brent today too.. I love him more then life itself.. I really do :) BRENT- we need to hangout asap.. I miss you

Current Mood: cheerful
Current Music: Smalltown Superhero

..your cold lips to breathe, a promise that tomorrow we'll wake up somewhere new.

Ehh yes I'm sick. Really sick. I feel so weak and dehydrated. I just want to lay all day by myself and just sleeeeeeep. Hopefully I start feeling better before the day's over..

Today is Tracy's birthday :) It's also Ian Morrisons birthday, he would've been 18 today. I miss the hell out of him and so does the rest of his friends at North East. I seriously hope that all my friends outlive me.. sometimes this shit is just too much..

The Inferno's finale is on today.. def. staying in and watching that!! ((sorry Tom)) I hope Katie whoops Veronicas ass.. I hate her. She def. gives girls a bad bad bad name.

I want a boyfriend.. or at least I think I do.

Who's down for fishing Saturday?! I was supposed to go last Saturday but like always, it didn't happen. I'm seriously down for fishing.. so if you wanna go too def. let me know. IT'LL BE FUN!!

Pull the trigger <3

Current Mood: exhausted
Current Music: Autumn Shade - The Vines

BAG OF CHIPS :)

Jess came over last night!! Haven't actually hungout with her in forever.. we just got done going up and down our hills of aggrivation and now we're back to normal and I love her!! I think I'm going out to dinner with her before she goes to prom.. that should be fun :)

Ashle and D are going to def. get back together.. or at least that's what I think. And I'm mostly always right when it comes to the relationships of my friends. It's a gift I suppose..

Ashle talked to Booher about me last night.. hmm so confusing. She said something about him saying that he knows that I would be perfect for him and that I'm a sweet girl and that I am what he needs when it comes to a girlfriend but he knows that in the long run he'd end up hurting me and he doesn't want to and that he's afraid to hangout with me because he doesn't want me getting attached to him or something. I dunno if this is all a crock of shit or if he was being serious. I liked Booher and I still do. There's just something about him that makes me so happy when I'm around him.. but I guess if what he said is true then there's no chance whatsoever of anything happening between the both of us and that sucks. But at the same time I want to be that girl of his that he knows he can always run to no matter what and I just want to be there for him. I dunno.. I wish things weren't the way they were but there's nothing I can do.

((All I want is you, the rest I'll sacrifice.))

Ashle, Tara, Amelia, Athena, Brittany and Jess.. my gurrrrlz for life. There was this girl Tracy who was like my SISTER and my only best friend.. some things happened and we stopped talking all together and it still hurts me to know that she hates me and I still put up a front that I hate her yet really deep down I just want to go and see her and give her the biggest hug ever. I miss her so much sometimes and her birthday is tomorrow and I think I might try and talk to her.. who knows.

Pull the trigger.. Pati <3!

Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: Go Your Own Way - Fleetwood Mac

Yo, did y'all check me when that hottie was all up in my Kool-Aid? Yeah, I was looking to break off a little somethin' somethin' but my crew gave me the 411 on that skank and she's all about the bling-bling..

Sitting here with Amelia.. Kenny just left. Cool kid.. uhhh Ashle left with D and Doug to go to Amber's new apartment :) I wanted to go but uhh yeh I'm stuck babysitting like always. Amelia is staying with me though to keep me company!! <333333 ya A :)

"All I ever wanted was you, my love."

Um yeh I know I have something really important to say but I can't think of it as of now so umm yeh I'll have to get back to you all on that one.

<3 me do.. Pati & Amelia

Current Mood: bored
Current Music: Wicked Game - HIM

and now I'm stuck here waiting.

Hmm.. last night wasn't too shabby. Amelia came over and I made her my special italian dinner :) It was just spaghetti and sauce but it was still bling bling!! Then uhh Ashle came over out of nowhere!! And then Kenny and Joe came over and uhhh then Adam and Arthur came over. A buncha cooooooool kids. My mom came home TRASHED and kept hitting on Arthur because he looks just like Keanu Reeves ;) Muhahaha.. then uhh we all left and just hung out. Adam is an animal raper.. period. =/ Yuk Yuk Yuk..

Ashle talked to Booher and made him feel like shit for what he did to me at the SOTY concert.. good. :) I'm sure we'll still be friends and whatev but damn it was fucked up!!!!!!!! Whatev..

Dunno what I'm doing tonight.. my mom for some reason said that I can't go anywhere because she wants me to go grocery shopping with her when she comes home from work which will be around 2 am because I know she'll be out partying.. so if you're bored and have no plans come hang out with me and Amelia and Ashle!!!! @ my house.. ((damn we sound so desperate.. haha))

<3! Pati

Current Mood: awake
Current Music: Riding Bikes

[edited]

HIM was awesome.. period. Soil was gayXcore but HIM was friggin awesome :)

My mom promised that next time I see CKY or HIM she's getting me a limo.. just because. Isn't she great?!

Amelia and Kenny are coming over later.  I feel bad because the movies I ordered didn't come in yet.. oops?!

Grange show tonight and I can't go.. not that I would anyways. :)

I'm back in the, "I need a boyfriend" mode. Dammit.. and Ashle is going to the Troc tonight to see Blind Set and guess what?! She's riding down with D and Booher and Doug!! Which means her and D are most likely going to either get back together or talk about it. Which means my best friend will have someone and once again I'll be left alone. Shiiiiit.. you know how a group of best friends all have boyfriends and there's always that one girl in the group who never does?! Hmm yeh that's me. Maybe I should make a sit-com out of my life or something.. it would be pretty funny.

Shower time..

 <3! Pati

Current Mood: pessimistic
Current Music: Taste You - Auf der Maur

Went to school today for an hour, saw Brittany ((I missed the hell out of her, I love you girl!! bff)) and Athena and my Anthony :) It felt so good to see my  friends.. I saw a bunch of people in the hallways and they all said heyy and shit but I feel bad because I didn't get a chance to give them all hugs and whatev.  I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!

I was showing people my scar and some boy asked how far it went down, I was like, "Look kid don't get all excited because what you see is all that's there".. horny little bastards I tell ya.

Def. found out that I have to make up 3 months of work in the period of one month on top of my online classes that I'll be starting soon.. if anyone wants to help me with all this shit I'd be forever grateful.

Going to see Him tonight with Justin, my concert buddy fo life. I'm so like, ready to rock out haha!! I'm going to look so cute too.. that's a plus.

Tom and I decided that we're getting married.. you ready?!

Well I'm going to go shower.. I'll update when I get home and let you know all of what happened tonight!!!

<3! Pati

Current Mood: excited
Current Music: 1969 - The Vines

And then, there's Ms. F, that's right, she's not married. Because she's mean, stupid, and ugly. Anyone that knows her will know who I'm talking about she's got a mullet, a big ridiculous fucking jerry-curl mullet. It's lopsided, and she's ugly. Her brother threw a bottle rocket at her when they were little so she's missing a couple fingers. I suspect her brother is really cool. Ms. F is probably like jesus, she got all the bad personality and looks so her brother could go on to be the coolest person alive, meaning that Ms. F is related to Miles Davis. As cool as Miles Davis is, none of his coolness transfers to F even though she's related to him, that's how uncool she is. She's shrivled, and really stupid. If I were dying and Ms. F was the only person that could save me, I would just die, out of personal principle. If I were mentally handicapped and wrote papers like "When I was sitting here in class I realized myths play an important role in society..." for a project entitled "The importance of myths in society." Maybe I wouldn't have failed her class. But I'm not, I'm fucking awesome, so she failed me.

That was written by my best friend Sean.. it's beautiful. =)

Momma dukes came home for lunch and informed me that I start my internet classes veryyy soon. Supposively I have to buy a microphone because the classes I'm going to be taking are LIVE. Haha this is going to be fun actually.. I can't wait to finish my psychology class. That had to be my favorite course everrrrrrrr. =)

GOING TO THE HIM CONCERT TOMORROW!! I'M SO EXCITED LIKE YOU HAVE NO IDEA.. MOST LIKELY BAM WILL BE THERE AND THAT MEANS THAT BRANDON WILL BE THERE AND EHH IT'S GOING TO BE GREAT!!

Ok.. for the past 3 days Ashle and I have snuck out around 1 in the morning and went to Adams dorm and hung out till like 4:30 in the morning.. last night we went to some little "oasis" at the U of D and it was soo beautiful!! They had like this fake goats set up with lights on them and Ashle sat on them.. she looked like a cute little fairy without wings. Haha gotta love her!! Adam tried milking the goats:-/ and Arthur just sat on a bench with some onions that he picked.. don't ask, and he kinda just laid there gazing at the stars talking to himself while using big big words.. 

I had a dream that I only had 3-6 months left to live.. that's some scary shit. Could you imagine knowing the time period of when you'd die?! I actually woke up crying.. =/

<333 Pati

Current Mood: sick
Current Music: Riding Bikes

I have my CKY cd back.. my life is now complete.

Um yeh talked to Jake today.. we're cool again. =) <333 yah in a non sexual friendly way.

OH YEH!!! BEFORE I FORGET.. I get to babysit all weekend once again!!! Gooooo me =/ Amelia is coming over Friday night to keep me company =) Always a pleasure hanging with me Amelia. Ashle is going to PHILLY to see Blind Set. Lucky bitch.. Saturday.. ohh what a coincidence?! I get to babysit again all night!! And Sunday.. hmm what am I doing?! BABYSITTING!! I have the best life ever I swear. Once again, you are all invited to come spend time with me. I was thinking about having a movie night one night or something and I dunno.. I wanna do something fun.

Card night Wednesday with Tom =) Nothing but love for you buddy.. and all my lj's are dedicated to you. Just because you like my bold letters and beautiful colors.. hehe!!

Close yet far, drop me a line and tell me how the hell you are.

<333 Pati

Current Mood: exhausted
Current Music: Close Yet Far - CKY

Your life is only dull if you don't spice it up.

Hmm sitting here at my buddy Adams dorm drinking my favorite drink. Zima XXX orange flavored. Fun Fun Fun.. I'm already feeling a little tipppppsy =/ Uh oh. Hmm yeh supposively I'm going fishing and camping with Greg and Ashle and some other kid Saturday?! Def. doubt that'll happen.. haha. No offense Greg but you are the WORST when it comes to plans. Friday I guess I'm going to the grange maybe with Amelia?! That should be fun. I was going to go to the Troc in Baltimore with Ashle to see Blind Set but Thursday I'm going to Philly to see HIM and I know I'm going to be toooooo tired to go on a long car ride to Baltimore.

Shiiiit blurry blurry words and keyboards.. I'm going to go drink more.

<33 me do - Pati

Current Mood: drunk
Current Music: Plastic Plan - CKY

Rather forget the days we spent, trying to stay afloat in shallow water.

Soo today I went to Wilmington to talk to my lawyer.. always fun. Then went to Bennigans.. rock on. Then went to my doctors and she said that my injury from the accident is worse then I thought. She was telling me all sorts of things that may happen to me in the near future and to be perfectly honest it all scares the piss out of me. She said I may need to go in for more surgery in a year or two. Fun fun fun.. and I dunno, having her tell me all that shit really freaks me out. =/ Fuck it.. if you're curious as to what can happen to me, just ask. Other then that.. it's whatev yo.

Boys are gay.. I love when they make a simple kiss into some big ordeal. By acting weird/acting like I don't really exist. Nice huh?! Pshhh I wish it kinda never happened if this is how things are going to be from now on..

Um I don't feel like typing anymore so I'll update later... Pati

Current Mood: confused
Current Music: Is This It - The Strokes

((You're hiding something cause it's burning through your eyes..))

Current Mood: annoyed
Current Music: Jewel to Sparkle - Juliana Theory

[LoWdOwN oF tHe NiGhT]

Watched Riding in Cars with Boys with Ashle.. we cried at the end and decided that we're going to live together forever, and since we hate sleeping alone, when we move out next year we're still going to share a room.. haha!!

Cassi came over around 10.. of course Ashle and Cassi smoked up =D Silly pot heads I swear. I got so mad at Ashle tonight!! She was flipping through channels while Striptease was going through commercials, and Freek-a-leak by Petey Pablo ((my favorite song ever)) was on MTV and I begged her to leave it on and she was like, "Oh sure!" and not even a minute later she put Striptease back on. And to think, I deal with her listening to The Used and Soco over and over again and I just want to hear ONE song yet she just had to change the channel.. pshhhh. That was so not cool Ashle ((sniffle sniffle infinity squared))

Umm.. Amelia's coming over again today!! Ashle, Amelia, and Pati.. the coolest chicks ever. You should see us two-step =/ Haha I think we're good for being girls.. but it's WHATEV. Amelia can bust out some maddddd harlem shakage. Pshh Justin said she didn't do well yet he wouldn't even do it!! Laaa-hooo-saaa-her. =D

Hmm my mom came home around 2 am trashed like whoa.. the poor thing was all upset about this guy Rob. Blahh he's a dick and he isn't even that cute. She'll learn sooner or later. She brought me home clams and shrimp which was wayyyy awesome =D

People are supposed to come over again today. I <33 my friends.. I really do. I'm stuck home babysitting so all my friends come over and keep me company. Jealous? Hmmh yeh you should be. =P

I update wayyyy too much.

<333 Pati

Current Mood: indescribable
Current Music: Janie's on Mars

"I'm not gonna lie, I want a beer.."